All this time goes by, Still no reason why
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Really?
I'm perfectly fine as I am, why do you have to change it?
Although you said it could be 'For the Best' you also said it's a matter of 'Trial and Error'.
They're completely controlled by medication, there's no way to know whether I've grown out of it. No test or scan and prove that...
And if this is the only way then I'd rather not know, it's not worth the risk.
You have no idea what it's like. How terrifying it is to worry about that all the time. And how you just want to run away when you know it's coming, your head feels compressed as if it's between a clamp, you feel sick to your stomach because you know it's inevitable. The pain afterwards, a current of electricity has just run through your brain, your so disoriented you have no idea where you are, or who these people are...the people you've known your whole life. It's scary.
Doesn't sound like something you want to 'Trial and Error'?
But I've put it off for a two months now, I've run out of excuses. It's now or never.
I just wish the second one was an option.
But I'll know by Monday if I can do without them, I've timed it pacifically so no-one else has to be around. I would hate for people to think of me like that, helpless. And I know you would all be scared.
I really wish I didn't have to do this.
On a lighter note... Imagine seeing this when you're entering the Childrens Ward at the Hospital.
This was the cause of about 87% of my childhood nightmares.
Representative of a crash victim maybe?
XxXxX
I'm perfectly fine as I am, why do you have to change it?
Although you said it could be 'For the Best' you also said it's a matter of 'Trial and Error'.
They're completely controlled by medication, there's no way to know whether I've grown out of it. No test or scan and prove that...
And if this is the only way then I'd rather not know, it's not worth the risk.
You have no idea what it's like. How terrifying it is to worry about that all the time. And how you just want to run away when you know it's coming, your head feels compressed as if it's between a clamp, you feel sick to your stomach because you know it's inevitable. The pain afterwards, a current of electricity has just run through your brain, your so disoriented you have no idea where you are, or who these people are...the people you've known your whole life. It's scary.
Doesn't sound like something you want to 'Trial and Error'?
But I've put it off for a two months now, I've run out of excuses. It's now or never.
I just wish the second one was an option.
But I'll know by Monday if I can do without them, I've timed it pacifically so no-one else has to be around. I would hate for people to think of me like that, helpless. And I know you would all be scared.
I really wish I didn't have to do this.
On a lighter note... Imagine seeing this when you're entering the Childrens Ward at the Hospital.
This was the cause of about 87% of my childhood nightmares.
Representative of a crash victim maybe?
XxXxX
