Kathleen-Jane

I've decided I really should blog more.

So here goes...I'm loving college at the moment. The fact that most people doing sciences take more than one subject in that area makes it really easy to get to know people, I never thought I'd see the day were I can make new friends on my own accord. It's a shame some people have to ruin it, please just enjoy yourself for once.

I love that Cass is part of the college crew!


Cass, Carmella and I have decided that now we are offically part of MedSoc we're going to get labcoats with our names on the back :L
I like to think of us as the 'cool' geeks and Jo's Chemistry enrichment as the 'weird' geeks.
I can tell this is going to be productive! :D
Definately better than what Ryde High would have done to help.

I don't miss it like I thought I would, Don't get me wrong I miss the people but I can tell this is going to be great for my education, especially after hearing how bad Miss Allen is at Biology. I got an A in my psychology exam eventhough I didn't revise and we hadn't even finished the assumption yet.

I guess you don't realise how hard they're actually working you, I just figured it was part of A-levels.

Really?
I'm perfectly fine as I am, why do you have to change it?
Although you said it could be 'For the Best' you also said it's a matter of 'Trial and Error'.

They're completely controlled by medication, there's no way to know whether I've grown out of it. No test or scan and prove that...

And if this is the only way then I'd rather not know, it's not worth the risk.


You have no idea what it's like. How terrifying it is to worry about that all the time. And how you just want to run away when you know it's coming, your head feels compressed as if it's between a clamp, you feel sick to your stomach because you know it's inevitable. The pain afterwards, a current of electricity has just run through your brain, your so disoriented you have no idea where you are, or who these people are...the people you've known your whole life. It's scary.

Doesn't sound like something you want to 'Trial and Error'?


But I've put it off for a two months now, I've run out of excuses. It's now or never.
I just wish the second one was an option.


But I'll know by Monday if I can do without them, I've timed it pacifically so no-one else has to be around. I would hate for people to think of me like that, helpless. And I know you would all be scared.


I really wish I didn't have to do this.



On a lighter note... Imagine seeing this when you're entering the Childrens Ward at the Hospital.



This was the cause of about 87% of my childhood nightmares.


Representative of a crash victim maybe?



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I think I'm getting the hang of this... althougth it took my 20 minutes to put the picture straight but I think thats to do with me being a perfectionist.


:)


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